I Can't Take It Anymore!

Sep 15, 2009

I am completely in over my head.
A day away from my big insurance exam, and my mind keeps drawing blank when I quiz myself on potential questions.
I'm generally an optimistic person, but... I can't do this. I'm not prepared.
What if I fail? My job is at stake, and granted, I don't like my job... but that's not the point.
It pays the bills, I have good coworkers, and I can't afford unemployment.
Sure, it should be easy. Study. I've been trying, believe me. I have every intention of staying awake until early in the morning cramming as much information into my head as I possibly can. The question is, will it be enough? I could easily reschedule... book for next Monday, buy myself a few more days. Unfortunately, I feel the pressure and I know that the company just wants me to hurry up and pass the exam, get my license, and be done with all of this. No more putting it off. In a way, that's what I want as well. I'm so tired of studying and stressing about studying and procrastinating when I should be studying. I want to get it over with. But if I'm going to fail, then it won't be over, right? I know, I sound crazy, I'm typing extremely fast and I feel as if maybe I am actually going crazy. My thoughts are rambling and my stress levels are at their peak. Oh goodness, what am I going to do? Help me!


carkeymiss said...

Good Luck!! I'm sure you'll do just fine :)

PatZ said...

if there's one thing that too many years of university taught me, it's that you always think you're screwed for an exam, but if you go into it telling yourself to relax and just get through it, you're usually always surprised at how easily you can pull things out of your head that you swore you would never remember.

If you get to a point where you've been studying nonstop for days and hours and your brain just refuses to want to keep remembering things, then stop. especially if it's the night before. there's no point in forcing yourself to try and cram it in there. chances are you'll remember what you need without the stress of pulling an all nighter.

in any case, good luck!

Julie said...

Try not to stress! Just relax. It's the best thing you can do for yourself right now. I'm sure you'll do great, especially if you've been studying. Good luck with it!!

And I really don't know when he's coming home. His orders state, "until the mission is completed." Very helpful, right??

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